You’ve (probably) heard of the 80’s movie The Neverending Story.
Well I am here to introduce a new concept: The Neverending Vacation.
It’s now been a little over 2 weeks since I quit my job and moved up north to be with my boyfriend, and I thought a recap of my first few weeks would be useful for everyone.
So far, it doesn’t really feel like I quit yet. It feels more like a vacation in a super nice Airbnb. I still get calls from my former coworkers telling me they miss me. I even had my first dream about work. I suspect as I settle in the house it will stop feeling like an Airbnb and more like home. I am really loving living in Minneapolis despite the 20″+ (IN APRIL) of snow that has fallen. I was able to reconnect with a childhood friend of mine for drinks, and start to deepen my connection to the local FI bloggers. (shoutout to Apathy Ends!)
It’s really quite impressive I’ve managed to do that with only leaving the house 4 times in 17ish days.
I have absolutely no reason to go outside, so I don’t. I also have no desire to go outside when it’s cold and snowing tons. It’s pretty awesome to not get up at o’ dark thirty and suffer through the cold and gross, though! I do look forward to going outside more once the weather warms up so I can take walks around the lakes or nice long bike rides on the paths around here.
I have been SUPER PRODUCTIVE since I quit and moved. Lots of work has been done on the podcast, this blog, and on my blossoming Etsy shop. My Inkscape skills have improved a ton since we started our Mastermind course 6 weeks ago! I have plans to create several different bundles in the future: alphabets and the 50 state outlines. Check out this one I did of Nevada recently:
And yet.… despite all the productive work I’ve done.…
I don’t think I can keep up this pace. I’m not going to lie, the first iteration of this post that I wrote made me break down into tears and put off writing for 4 days. All in all, the fact I made it that long without some sort of break is impressive.… I’d say.
I don’t want to admit this, but I think I took on too much at once.
I can deal with quitting my job and starting to hustle online full-time.
I can deal with packing up my entire life and moving to a different state.
I can deal with moving in with my boyfriend and figuring out our new lives together.
I could not and cannot handle all of those at the same time. About the only thing I can say is I am incredibly grateful I don’t also have to deal with figuring out a new job and coworkers and everything that entails.
I was struggling hard core with burnout before I quit. I assumed being burnt out would magically stop once I wasn’t at work for 9+ hours a day.
Oh, how wrong I was.
If anything, I think I am even more burnt out than I was. I have worked harder after quitting. The pressure of losing my “guaranteed” income from work got to me. I am petrified of running out of money, or some major unplanned, expensive repair popping up on the rental.
Therefore, I am overcompensating and throwing myself into work in order to build that income back up.
I don’t regret quitting when I did. Despite the incredible mix of emotions swirling through me right now, I am happy I did. Having someone to give you a hug or be a shoulder to cry on is really, really nice to have around. Instead of seeing my boyfriend once a fortnight, I get to see him every single day! He is an incredibly wise person and has made a number of useful suggestions as we work through figuring out how to live together. Our relationship has moved relatively quickly so it’s really wonderful to get to step back and slow it down a bit.
He’s helped me realize I need to take time off even if my caveman brain is telling me I can’t afford it.
I’m taking next week off.
I’ll be online as little as possible. The house is fully stocked with snacks. We’ve got like, 8 different video game systems I can play. There’s stacks of books calling my name. I used to be able to stretch out and read a book for hours at a time, and I would like to get back into that mode. (any entrepreneurial/finance book suggestions are more than welcome!)
Heck, I’ve even got some counted cross stitch I can work on if I so choose. (Pallet Town home sweet home design in case you were wondering).
This is an ideal time to take off. I don’t HAVE to post things here. We’ve got a hefty backlog of episodes for the podcast and as long as I get my share of the show notes done, I am clear on that for 3 weeks! Our Digital Download Etsy Mastermind groups ended this week. I literally have no reason to be on the computer next week.
The thought makes me giddy.
I was worried that I’d be seen as a slacker, or a hack, or weak but I honestly don’t care what conclusions people draw about me anymore. I need a break, I’ve got the time, so I’m going to take it.
Wish me luck!